Blurred Memories

Pink.

I see pink.

The smell of the pillow under my nose.

It makes me forget.

It makes me at peace.

Trying to feel the presence

Of the soft cushion underneath.

Support.

Fatigue.

It takes a while before I close my eyes.

Embracing the silence I've never had.

For the good.

For the worse.

I dream of good things.

"Few more minutes."

Five.

Four.

Three.

Realizing and remembering..

It is actually,

Black.

Space

I'm writing this
to let my feelings out.
I am currently in need of help.
I do not know what to do right now.
There are a lot of things going on
inside my head.

I am a mess.
I have questions.
I am lost.
I am afraid.

I am negative.
I am tired.
I am sad.

And need to be saved.

だから、気をつけて。

Cure

As I got off the car,

You walked towards my way.

You waved your hand.

And I waved mine.

You called my name.

And I was speechless.

Was it fate?

A mere coincidence?

Even if it was just for a few seconds..

Even if it did not even matter to you..

Thank you for being there.

I needed it.

The mistake is thinking there can be an antidote to the uncertainty. (The Lover's Dictionary)

Dreams

OH DREAMS

Why is it so hard?

The happiness turns to sorrow. All the luck will fade away.

Reaching and trying. Getting near, getting far.

The faith is great. Expectations are big.

The pressure is on. There is no going back.

White becomes black. The tables have turned.

Pride, ego and lies. I died and I cried.

Why will you let my hopes up..

then always turn me down?

Reversal

First post ito.

First post simula nang umalis ako dito.
Grabe ang girly ko pala noong bata pa ako.
Ang dami ko pang ka-echosan.

Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit ako gumawa ng account dito.

Siguro kasi ang dami ko ng gustong ilabas at wala akong mapaglabasan.

Drama noh? Pero totoo.

Public ito pero nakasisiguro ako na wala masyadong dadaan sa website na ito.

Wala.

Lalo na ikaw.

Oo, heartbroken kasi ako ngayon.

Hindi dahil sa nakaraan.

Kung hindi dahil sa ngayon.

Siguro hindi mo maiintindihan.

Paano mo nga naman maiintindihan, ni hindi mo nga ako napapansin.

Nakatutuwang isipin na parati tayong pinaglalapit ng tadhana.

Siguro hindi mo napapansin.

Siguro. Nagbabakasakali..

Dati na kitang nakikita. Dati na kitang kilala.

Ngayon lang tayo naging tunay na magkaibigan.

Magkaibigan.

Nagbabatian, nagpapansinan, naglolokohan, nagtatawanan, nagtutulungan..

Kahit kailan, hindi ko akalain na mahuhumaling ako sayo.

Paano ba naman, ang dami nating pagkakaparehas.

Nakakatuwa. Nakakatuwa..

Sana hindi pa huli ang lahat.

P.S Idol na nga pala kita.

Where does love go?